“Echoes of Self-Reflection: Struggling Within”

I understand what you want me to see. And how do I let you know that I see it for what it is? Indeed, I see more than that. Do you not feel that I’ve in fact told myself to be better? do better… You don’t believe I rage at myself for every mistake I commit? Do you not realize that? I see so much that I can no longer discern confidence. I see failure when I see me A person who would be abandoned in the dark while others experience the light, the encounter that was likewise intended for me  But somehow I wasn’t meant to see Loser loser loser I tell myself everyday when I do something that’s very much like I would do I tell myself all the bad things in the world I tell my self to do better I tell my self next time I will do better Yet, the next time I feel disappointed in myself Seeing how useless I’ve been And could continue being exactly the same… Sad to say, you can see it too Notice it You see me, which is the hardest part. You see me as I struggle to overcome all the issues. You see me assuring myself that I’ll work harder You watch yourself becoming let down again, because I had made promises and you had yet again placed your faith in me. You see me And I see me We don’t see me changing We see me stuck You’ve taken a back And I’ve taken a back We both are frustrated We both feel the nothing that I have put in the something that we share And maybe you don’t want to be stuck With me That’s okay too Cause I’m stuck and a way out is too blurry to see A hope, perhaps? perhaps the change? However, what’s change? How is it made? The question that I ask everyday The answer I leave blank everyday

The piece delves into the speaker’s self-doubt and feelings of inadequacy. It portrays the internal battle between wanting to do better and the constant disappointment that follows.